How I spent my Raya Puasa

  by   Thursday, June 27, 2019   3 comments
Raya! raya! raya! everybody loves raya. New baju raya, kuih raya, kasut raya, tudung raya and most important duit raya! Surprisingly, being 21 i did received so many duit raya from every houses i visited, it's either belah ibu in Pahang and belah ayah in KL on the first and second day of raya. This time i managed to join my dearest childhood friends from highschool for jalan-jalan raya around Putra Perdana with the absence of Mifit, Kak Jah and Adel —they were at their kampung till D-7 of raya and Mifit? Hehe.. What to expect from her? That woman got her first paper for finals on Monday raya D-6 so yeah i think these three may proceed till the next raya, Hihihi...

Raya in Putra Perdana can be so different compared to last raya. i cannot make it since i had papers to attend in Kelantan. So yeah, this raya gonna be worth i think. Say hi to Fatin, Iffa, Hafizat, Amirul, Qama, Qurr, Lizzy, Uzma, Izzy, Raidah and Hogan. Only this people could make it so far. For the recent update, most of us still pursue studies, mostly into degree and Raidah's doing her diploma intern and Lizzy made her first job experience as civil engineer somewhere in private company near Puchong Jaya.

********TADAAAA!!!!********

Lilysters all grown up version.

Guess it's not too late to say Selamat Hari Raya to warga Internet since Syawal hasn't end yet and they said "raya, kan sebulan" hiks. But the main purpose is that i just realized i never had a proper posting on how i spent my raya in a fully writing form. That is, for Instagram i've done my part by doing so —uploading so many raya photos via instastory. Indeed, for blog i need some of time to write one full posting which required high commitment and inspiration. Geddit?? geddit??

Ok rite. End of beraya with the Lilysters. So i may proceed with the family, shall we??

Raya D-1 the males (Ayah, Iqbal & Amirul) went to Masjid Putra Perdana to perform solat sunat hari raya which means we were basically still at home. About 11am, we went balik kampung to celebrate raya with  our big families in Pahang.

So here's our Raya big family portrait.



I know, i know, right. Iqbal with his turqoise outfit, Amirul's golden yellow, ibu pink, Anis songsang sket and mine purple as similar to ayah's, we are kind of family yang tak sedondon baju raya since ibu doesnt like it. Ibu cakap sedondon macam nak buat marhaban pulak hahhaha.. Tapi takpelah as long as no argument between ayah and the siblings, kiteorg ok je. But next raya we proceed to sama kaler, boleh tak??

Ok we are done about beraya in kampung till raya D-2! say hello to another big families from belah Ayah!


This time, raya in KL gonna be so much different. We hadnt visit to each house of the families during raya but instead of planning to gather at the newlyweds, Abang Yadi and Kak Intan's place somewhere in Hulu Langat. Before our way to Hulu Langat, I snapped this cute moment photo between the kiddos. Anis and Amirul were sleeping soundly at the back of seat. Comel lah sangat, kan :p

The kiddos tido lepas buat bising kat belakang. 

Pic of Anis not-so-called-cute-posing

Anis makan, makan and makan sebalang kuih raya. 

This cute pic of Tok teh ft. his fav cucu Fatehah. 

Remember Baby Fatehah? Nope. I never mentioned about this little cutie before. But, she was the baby i took picture with in this post. The same old Fatehah. Now, a bit chubbier. Hehehe.. she's being the 2nd born to Kak Eijah and Abang Mizie who i get closed to. The D-5 of raya night, when we were about to go back home, Abang Mizie gave me a sampul duit raya filled RM20 just for me! Not to be shared with Anis and Amirul since the two got RM10 for each. I was like... that was so kind of you Abang Mizie. Hehehe orang ganu memang pemurah hati macam ni eh. 

 And... Duit raya?????? 

Right. I made a brave attempt to raya sakan within the study week to which i would call "beraya dalam kegelisahan" and now i suffered enough for the next two papers —Downstrean Processing and Microbial Physiology.

Pray for me guys! Xoxo



Bila hati dah tawar

  by   Monday, June 24, 2019   2 comments
Err haluu?? Is anybody here reading to my another lame blogpost at the end of June?? 

First of all, i need to admit one thing regarding blogging can be So. Much. Boring. i always have trouble with it over past few months since i only had less interaction in the comment section and traffic views. Thus, making me lack of consistency in writing/blogging. I mean NO. Nothing stop me from writing in here. 

Secondly, due to the conflict arises in relationship that make me forgot those days i own a blog and not forget to be mentioned the busyness which I've been claimed in the semester four —4th sem sucks! Well being less a student, i found the title as far away from my excitement to pursue studies into higher levels. In simple word, I've just lost the shine of passion to continue degree. I've no other option rather than quit in the middle of the road (What?! You got 2years of remaining) or else end them all to make my parents proud. For now i would stay with the 2nd optionlah, kan! 

Conflict? Still, i remain loyal to Syakirah, Imanina, Alya and Ayu Nazira since they're all i got in uni and of course they are more than the definition of unimate/roomate/housemate itself —adopted sisters that are created to guide me in healing process (to be a better person from day-to-day). I'm pretty impressed that I'm still sticking to them. To my surprise, I'm no longer care to make my circle bigger due to the hypothesis I clearly made by myself.

The bigger the circle you make, the higher the conflict risk you need to take. 

Duhh...
Aahhhh...

The real conflict arises is that saya dah tawar hati. Tawar hati sebab apa?? Sebab ... malaslah nak pikir. Sekarang tengah final exam so nak focus. Ok this is inappropriate ending post by me after all this time ek. To end this post that doesnt end up with conclusion i would rather say, Selamat Hari Raya yang ke-17 everyone!

Gambar hanya sekadar hiasan. 


A daughter’s first love.

  by   Monday, April 15, 2019   No comments
Source, Facebook

“ Old as she was, she always missed her dad sometimes. ” 
Gloria Naylor


Still NOOB

  by   Monday, April 08, 2019   No comments
Today is Apip's 21st birthday. FYI we were born in the same year so, that makes us sebaya... Except that he's 27 days younger than me. Being officially 21 has turned him into a grown man, very mature enough to do a wise decision-making in life but, yet still innocent in a lot of ways (this also includes me —he's never stop calling me noob. Such a kiddo la, Pip.


Speaking of his 'noob'ness, Apip got his own silly way to wish me on my birthday, which amused me only in less than 5 minutes before i came out with my own assumption...

 "was he teasing me on my birthday??"

This recent he added me into my own birthday group, which he named "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" on Whatsapp. The group only participated the two of us and here's go the tricky little steps. 

1. He added me into the group
2. He made me an admin 
3. He called me,

"NOOB, still NOOB"

4. And, he did left the group

Aaaa, such a lousy birthday wish from Mr. Apip, for the sake of making me to look like a-little-miss-loner-havent-get-a-single-birthday-wish-on-her-birthday. I KNOW RIGHT, THAT WAS NOT COOL MAN CMON I DESERVE LOTS OF GIFTS ON MY BIRTHDAY!

Anywoo, i have a confession regarding Apip's birthday. 

I've aged so much that i cant recall his birth date. I wondered if it was either on April 4th or 8th. It's just my memory has deteriorated this lately, i guess?? As a return to his 'lousy' birthday wish, i indeed did the same. Created a Whatsapp group for the birthday boy. LOL


Another lousy birthday wish from the Kereks to Mr. Apip. A loner birthday boy might fit him on his 21st birthday and yet still a kiddo and most important, he's still a noob to me!

I dont know why we were acting like two kiddos whom calling each other by names; noob, kiddo, lame, etc though we are now old enough to deal with each other emotion but being a rebellious me, one needs to be sabar, sabar and sabar. Some of the time, I think that Apip is all true about me, i'm still NOOB and always will be.

Post —turmoil

  by   Saturday, April 06, 2019   No comments
I've been silent from the blog.

Almost a month and a half from now.

Alright, first there was the lecture, then the lab, so when there's lab, here comes the laboratory scientific report, then the mini project, then the presentation, then the bla bla bla... No I can't recall them all anymore. Sigh.

Now where do I begin? Home?

Umm, Hye (?) I'm back home sebab cuti midsem. Ahhh I feel so good to be at home, surrounded with my bulus (cats, I own cats, don't you know, people!) and family. When there's family, there's love.

And when there's love, there's life. 

Absolutely, there is a connection between —love and life. I always say, when there's love in my heart, I'm feeling particularly good in comprehending life. MY LIFE. But, everything's been so messed up lately. I just can't fathom what's wrong with my life  ME!


"Everything's been so messed up here lately,
Pretty sure he don't wanna be my baby" — I'm a mess, Bebe Rexha 


NO. I dont want to be anyone's baby and I dont care for not being one. Likely, I can love myself better than anyone else, kot. 

And, I really did good in self-loathing, too 

Shoot me, I'm dying inside.

I don't know. A lot has been happening, and believe it or not, I've had watched multiple season episodes of Avatar: The Last Airbender on my iPad, only that when I refused to do my lab report —somehow I left them hanging in order to get myself some entertainment by watching Aang defeated Fire Lord Ozai. Kahkah. Her inner feelings couldnt be aged much, is it? Sigh. 

Except that when it comes to serious matter, she could be as furious as lion.

Not the point though. 

I remember on watching Avatar, one thing that I can't never forget was Fire Prince Zuko dealing with a great emotional turmoil of his. As a result, he couldnt find his own destiny. 

Ahhh I'm so bad talking about life. I've no wisdom of experience since I'm only turned 21 in less than a month. Just now, I talked about the connection of love and life, later the miserable life I lived in, then I talked idiot about The Avatar (#merepek)

But, the message I wanna highlight of it after been watching of Zuko's life in The Avatar, all I can say to my future self is that...


You choose your own destiny. 

Keep it on track.

And, lastly have faith in The Almighty.  


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