As I write this, my dearest adik bongsu is about to sit for his UPSR in less than 24 hours. In my attempt to be a little melodramatic kakak, I told him, "check jawapan lepas habis jawab soalan, paling penting jangan careless."

Such cliche phrases you ever overheard being said back then, betul tak?

A scenario I've been able to witness when it came to my cikgu sekolah rendah over past 9 years ago. She overused those cliche phrases in order to give us a little push for the battle.

I can tell, they were all sweet expressions I ever heard. Today, being the eldest out of 4, it is my turn to say so, to my kid bro and the rest is up to him.

The Tumbleh thingy supposedly best read as TUMBLR.

My friend, Danial is shocked to know that I'm on tumblr after all this while. This happened when I was on a Whatsapp conversation with him on our first year in the university. I actually didn't expect him to react that way.

I were just like... "why bro?, is tumblr overrated for a girl like me?"

That was not my very first time intrigued with such question by those guy friends of mine, "kau ada tumblr ke??", "how come u can hv tumblr, ain??", "hehehehe ko buat apa do kat tumblr" with an evil grin on their faces. Being me, I simply couldn't figure out their intention so I chose to act naive, "apa? takfaham lah korang cakap apa"

Dah lelama sket, sel-sel otak mula berhubung. I got the answer already leh.

Last year, I been checked out an online article regarding 'How Tumblr went from being the most porn-friendly social media site to banning porn' on The Verge. As I said earlier, I didn't know anything if Tumblr allowed so much nudes. Pffttt

Speaking of Danial, he exactly suspicious of me, if I ever had looked up for nudes on Tumblr. "aigooo, what Danial what?!" The problem is that Tumblr isn't a pornographic community. It is less likely a combination of Instagram and Twitter which allow users to reblog their content in the form of blog. Ever since I saw one of my schoolmate, signed up Tumblr and reblogged each post regarding motivational/inspirational/islamic quotes, photography, fashion, design and yada yada yada her nice shots on tumblr to which the content of Tumblr itself inspired me alot!

And on one thing, I started to be the nerd who code Tumblr theme for fun at early 13. Not that expert but yet I know lah the closing tags bla bla bla. Coding is just fun as math (for me ye) coz we got to learn the language of computer.

Pastu I macam pikir "best gak Tumblr ni ek", kata seketul saya diusia lingkungan 13 tahun.

The fact that I signed up Tumblr over past 6 years ago. The blog is still available in 2019 (in case if you guys wanna stalk or follow mine, just do whatever u wanna do) but it is more likely to be abandoned for now :p

I rarely log into my Tumblr since most of people i used to know are likely to be on Instagram and Twitter. I guess none of them were on Tumblr or perhaps some don't know if Tumblr ever existed today. So yeah I might have Tumblr but not really into it as much as I spent on Instagram and Twitter.

The point is, it is yourself that control your own Tumblr blog. I personally rarely see such artistic nudes on Tumblr since I shield my dashboard through safe mode and most important, don't ever follow Tumblr blogs that post that kind of adult content. Hhahahah tak marah pun. Just my two cents je tau.

OK, Danial am I being clear?

Just in case you guys thought that i was nursing a baby human named Alap at this young age, you guys are wrong.

Alap is a 8 month-old cat I've been adopted last year and he fell sick when i was in my last week in Kelantan. Remember this guy i posted in here??? He's been so much manja now, especially when he dropped his body to the ground and rolled on his back, exposing his tummy, wanting to be rubbed. I would simply gave him a slight head/tummy rub to show him some gesture of, "You can put trust on me, bro!" then, you gotta see his cuteness overload like this!


But *ahem*, not when he started to scratch and bite me when i was about to treat his open wound. He was no longer cute to me, werk, bad Alap!

Okay, back to my sick Alap. He was truly sick in early July, to be exact — due to the presence of an abnormal lump on his neck (he's currently in healing process). The lump looked less likely a "beguk" and i were just like... "ooh,..kucing pun boleh ada beguk??" Well, at least that was what i been informed by ibu regarding Alap through phone when i was in Kelantan. In fact, i found that dogs might actually be able to get mumps, transmitted from humans but it is very uncommon. But cats?? I can't think of it.

When a dog is exposed to a person who is infected with a viral infection called the mumps, the dog may develop the same infection. This cross-over is very rare, but is known to occur occasionally.

In a meantime, ibu actually noticed something was wrong with Alap due to subtle changes in his behaviour — not be that interested in eating (eat very little), low energy level (seemed to be lying around a lot, sleeping and more tired than usual).

For one thing, it was understandable we would be worried about Alap. By the time i were back home from Kelantan, i found the lump ruptured deep under his skin, creating painful swelling area around the neck and it was getting larger. An abscess should i call, left a small hole through his skin which was kind of gross looking (i could see Alap's bloody trachea/oesophagus, whatever they called, i dont know), directly from my two naked eyes! Luckily, i'm okay of seeing blood in real life and tv, so yeah bring it on!



Ooh,...regarding the abscess, it appeared as a swollen spot, pus-filled lump under the surface of the skin bcs of wound infection by bacteria. What more, i assumed that he might had a fight with other cats since he has an access to the outside for mating purpose and then, got himself scratches or bites, either through the claws of another cat or himself (only God knows) thus, resulted in wounds which became infected. So, we went to the vet in order to determine the cause.


Alap received his first advanced treatment by draining the fluid abscess for dead tissue removal beneath the skin in proper sterile veterinary environment. Supposedly, a type of reconstructive skin surgery was required to close over the skin due to a large puncture wound that was left opened. But, i absolutely couldnt afford that skin surgery for him since the vet bills might cost me around RM300 - RM400!! Hence, the vet advised me if i could treat Alap at home by my own without underwent expensive surgery to which i just had to buy some medication and things i need to cleanse the open wound at the nearby pharmacy if necessary.



Cleansing the wound perhaps, would be the crucial part since i must perform the aseptic techniques to minimize the risk of the wound infection. Get everything to be sterilized. The part when i must get my both hands 99.99% of free-contaminants before a salve was applied around the open wound.

Remember when i said, he started to scratch and bite me when i was about to treat his open wound? I actually asked the help from Anis, Amirul or Ikki to "tie" his legs. Not to be mentioned, when Alap couldnt stay still when i dug around in his wound to clean it, otherwise he would struggle to release himself to which it only means he prepared to attack us real quick!...(that's another the whole different story).

Also, he did received an opportunity to wear "cone of shame" for the first time of his life! hhahahaha


Guess what?? Basically i learnt that checked out Alap at the vet had caused me a lot of money. Bless my sick Alap when his open wound could be dealt with at home. What i need to do was checking on the wound for every hour to prevent bleeding from Alap's scratching at it, cleaned and put bandage around his neck like this!



I know, i know sounds complex but within the sem break i've got free time on nursing Alap.

He's still in healing process now. It takes about 2-3 weeks to allow the open wound heal by its own. Still, he tries to take off the bandage around the neck by scratching onto it and i have to put it all over again up to 3 times a day. Oh, please Alap jangan buat hal lagi.

It was the end of semester struggle, where my fellow "unimates" celebrate their freedom. As I scroll through my Instagram, everyone... to be specific, Anggun posting her best pictures of the day, showing how happy she and her cliques were on the end of semester.

Ooh me??? i haven't snap a single picture at all. I mean, we had but one without me.

I don't have any trouble of others uploading their happy faces on Instagram or telling the whole world that you were celebrating the end of semester with your loyal companions. In fact, it was just like a tradition for most people in my uni to celebrate their last day with going somewhere, or makan-makan kepci with their cliques or coursemates. But since Ayu, Kiera and I had our last paper earlier than Kak Iman and Alya, we chose to cancel our mini celebration just to give them some space to get study. Again, i don't see any trouble with it. At least, i didn't have to wasting my time, looking for good places to eat near us. Umm that moment when we hadnt find a good place to eat, what came to my mind was that, "why girls can be so complicated when it comes to where and what to eat?? Hehehe... Toksah malu lah, i used to be like this too but i hate to take one's time just for my own good. On the good side, I didn't have to spend lots of money on eating luxury dishes since we had planned to makan ikan siakap 3 rasa which in my thought the menu was quite expensive for us as students. Thus, i preferred one during makan kat kedai with ayah.

The last two days before the end of semester struggle, i literally exhausted. I was all messed up regarding my last two papers. I thought that Downstream gonna be easy since it was all about facts and conceptual science studies. Hell yeah it was TEDIOUS as not what it seemed to be with hardcore calculation like addmath. In contrast, Physiology could be 10times better as what i expected.

I worked hard for finals till i forgot the exact details about when i should pulangkan my room keys, when to place my bicycle at blok A, list of things to bring home, what to do for the upcoming semester break? It seemed so much kelam kabut pastu sempat lagi main game sampai tidur pukul 4 pagi.

Since i have ended my 2nd year, same goes to what Anggun said on her Instagram, i dont really get into 4th sem compared to the previous one due to some unexpected events, assignment, mini project yada yada yada and when it was stated as "mini" i couldnt agree more. It just a huge one with the complexity of the do's and dont's, certain requirements and scheme to make things absolutely miserable for all of us?? Last minute video preparation, report, report, report and presentation. Those tasks drained up all my energy and yeah 4th sem sucks!



P/S im now at home and it seems my blogging mode has been activated.