i've been mentioned like one, two, three, four, five, six thousand times i'm not that into Chemistry but when it comes to this good-looking lecturer, known for his charming smile, get into your class lab and take over the session, you find it so hard to resist his charm and the heart get start to melt.

Ladies and gentlemen, let's call him Dr. A

Like seriously, this is not his very first time took over the class since we had our last lecture on Electrochemistry. Before we haven't meet him yet, there was rumours going around about his handsomeness among the first year students especially the girls, la kan.



Gosh, I've found myself in the same situation! The other day when he entered into the lecture, I would pretty much melt. He's quite simply gorgeous with his charming smile upon his face. He dresses well and has a dry sense of humor.

The most exciting part was in the calorimetry lab. Dr A was in charge for the three courses. As biotech had the most number of students, we were likely to get moved into the next lab which handled by the lab assistant. Ok i envied the other two courses sebab they were lucky to get him under his vision. Anyway, being separated doesn't mean that I can't usyar dari jauh, kan? So, in the lab, after the experiment was done, we were given questions and need to write down the calculation and facts regarding the experiment. Compile those section and submit them by group at 5pm sharp.

It was Sarah and I were in charge for the calculation about the energy released (E) and stuff. We had some misunderstanding specifically on both masses of HCl and NaOH in solid form. Yes, freaking chemistry stuff...... Ok let's skip this part. So, I told Sarah to go ask for Dr. A -he's in the next lab.

And by that I meant, let's go 'usyar' him at the next lab.

P/S are marks deducted for the cover page without the lecturer's name?

p/s Nak cakap depan-depan tapi tak berani, sebab risiko dia terlalu tinggi, so saya minta undur diri.

I'm going into my fifth week somewhere in Jelifornia

Feels like I haven't written much for a while. Not sure if I was busy caught up with lectures, assignments, getting involved with university events and so on.. or it's just me being lazy all the time in the bed while browsing web. Ugh

These past few days I got lonely, lost, begin to lose hope in the future and find it hard to enjoy any aspect of life. Actually, I have something to do with those lab reports, specifically on biochemistry but I need to wait for Desh, who is in charge for the result, calculation and graph regarding our previous experiment. And what more, he asked us to email him our individually discussion by tomorrow but.. hey, have you done your part yet, bruhh??



On my mind, I should give him a hand so that I can make his life become easier not even that, I think I can lighten the emotional burdens of our group but finally he said he was doing good. We do have our whatsapp group but it seems everyone refused to participate into conversation and discussion. So I've make up my mind to get a help from Sarah, ask her if she has done her part yet.

Doing degree is not the best part of my life, like seriously I'm known among friends for dislike this place where I currently study. What really goes inside my head is that am I investing the worthlessness in the future? Like in the future living in modern life, have a degree and become jobless? Whoaa, if you have high CGPA that shouldn't be a problem. yada yada yada nothing is easy in this world, ok, if only you're willing to pay for the price (effort) then the success should be yours (qouting Dr Wong)

When I was down I started to look back for the kifarah on what I've done before. Hehehe sounds funny (for me) but the reality is checked!



Due to the unbearable loneliness, I Whatsapped Danial. He concluded that I was too miserable and he suggested if I should go out and get some fresh air.



Talking about Danial, we were no longer spent time together - more to work on our genetics assignment, as he quitted for Biotechnology and went for Agrotechnology but yet he still in the same campus where I currently study. To be honest, only few people I considered to talk to, people like Danial, Sarah, A.Faiz. Just take a look during this semester I currently work on three labs (genetics, chemistry and biochemistry presentation) with A. Faiz and Sarah. God bless me. And now here's coming the awkward ending part. Pray for me guys!